Well...Todd and I have spent the last 3 weeks trying to figure out what to do with our situation and the courts ruling. After praying and exhausting every opportunity for housing and job availabilities in AZ for me and the kids, we have discovered our recourses do not allow for me to move back. The doors are just not opening, and I believe this is God's way of telling me that I need to trust Him. Many of you know already the decision I've been faced with...the hardest one in my life. As I've talked with many of my mentor's and prayed about this with them...and wonderful friends and family all agree that this is the best decision that I can make with the given circumstances. I've also had an unexplainable peace too, which also speaks volumes to me. I mean, how can I possibly be at peace with something I am dreading doing? That would be God my friends...and only He can give me PEACE during this time.
Tomorrow Sunday the 12th, I am leaving with the kids to drive down to AZ. I will be staying with them for a week to get them settled and meet their teachers and such...then I will be going back to Montana.
I hate the thought of my kids not having a parent home with them after school and how they are going to be going to 3 different schools...I'm thankful to have skype to be able to talk to them daily to make sure they are all safe and I can give them my love.
My kids are very sad about leaving here...and Foster keeps praying for his miracle for them to be able to somehow stay here. My kids love their dad and want to see him and such...but they are sad to have to move back to AZ. I am sure they will adjust again in their schools...however, I have never experienced a better school system than the one they have here, before. They each had a little going away party at school yesterday...Olivia's 1st grade class is going to send her notes too...that is so sweet and thoughtful! Foster's friends are all sad to see him go...his friend Sarah even started to cry yesterday. Olivia and I made cupcakes for their last day too...We love to bake together.
Please pray for us through this transition...as this is the hardest one I've ever been faced with ever before.
Even a friend of ours, said this "Even with all the money resources I had when I went through my divorce with my ex wife, I never would have done this to my children or their mother"
Someone would have everyone believe that I am leaving my children, or choosing Todd over them...but let me tell you... as it hurts to hear this, this is just not the case at all.
On a brighter note...Foster got his first quarter grades and has straight A's! Olivia is doing very well too. They don't have grades for 1st grade, but she gets graded on on her papers and she excels big time.
Scrap booking has not been high on my priorities lately...so I haven't done much of that since I've been faced with this life hardship. I did manage to do one a couple weeks ago of Foster and Olivia...with Sudio Calico kit. I am missing Pick of the Patch and all the girls there and my kits from them too. I hope you girls are all doing well...sorry to be absent for so long...I've needed to take a leave of absent from all my Design Teams for a little while to get through this time. Thank you for understanding and allowing me this time. (((hugs)))
Have a blessed weekend.
PS. THANK YOU SO MUCH to everyone who has been following my story. Thank you for the love and support...and thinking and praying for us through this. It means so much more than I express with words... you all have touched my heart and helped in carrying me through this. THANK YOU for walking down this road with me...I am so grateful to you all!
*edited to add*
Friends divorce brings out the ugliest in people, especially the one that was left...and the ones that get hurt the most are the children. So if I could give a bit of wisdome in my experience...as I believe this is why God hates divorce...make sure you have done all you can do before you take that step. Here are a few tips to take you through it if your marriage has gone to a point of no return as mine did.
- Never talk badly about the other parent in front of your children as much as possible...they still are their parent, and that hurts them deeply.
- Don't get upset when your children talk fondly of the other parent either,
- and be open to their questions with out indirectly pointing the finger to defend yourself to the other parent.
Friends...all the ugliness in divorce is a consequence to choosing divorce. Even though you may be justified in your divorce biblically, God still hates divorce because no matter what or why, there are reprocusions that hurt everyone involved...and God hates that result I believe. Like we as parents to our children, we want the best for them...but we can't make their choices for them. Sometimes they make choices that we know are going to bring them pain, and that brings us pain...just as our choices bring God pain because of our pain.
With so much love,